IS IT BETTER TO FEEL PAIN THAN NOTHING?
DOES IT FEEL BETTER TO PERSEVERE OR TO GIVE UP?
xx I believe LIFE is not worth living if you have no passion to show for it: may it be laughter, happiness, sadness, pain. To be devoid of feeling is to be dead, there is nothing more I am sure of than that. (It is better to feel pain than nothing.) I have always believed in that since I was young: I knew I was going to LIVE, LAUGH & LOVE LIFE (my motto) to its UTMOST, nothing less. At the end, I want to be able to say "I have lived my life" with such certainty &pure satisfaction, feeling a sense of sweet victory that each word is wholly true. Most people think that only experiencing the good counts, but I digress. I wish to experience everything, the dark side included. It is for this reason that I [particularly] indulge in all my irrepressable, erratic teenage moods: there is a much satisfaction in expression.
I know if I was to open my heart and let everyone see what was inside it, I would be scared. Scared of having someone ridicule what I was truly feeling. Scared of someone playing with my emotions and using them to deceive or trick me.
Perseverance, is also another trait I feel strongly about (Passion is the other). What can I say, I am a stubborn little girl. But truly, honestly: why even bother beginning if you are just going to give up anyway? THERE IS NO POINT. I believe once you have started something - particularly something difficult - you have accepted the challenges that go along with it, spoken or not. Although admittedly, yes, sometimes it IS so much easier to give up, but where is that frame of mind ever going to get you? Sticking to it reaps rewards, if nothing more than the satisfaction of completing the task, surprising yourself for your courage and ability to get yourself this far.